Just songs that sum up my feelings right now - not my work....some of mine will be up someday....in all aspects....

"As you neglected I called you out 'don't please'
I said we're stronger than this now
You ressurected mistakes years past it seems
And they exist to still haunt you

And still you feel like the lonliness is better replaced by this
I don't believe it this way.
And I can see the fear in your eyes
I've seen it materialise
Growing stronger each day

I can see it as you turned to stone
Still clearly I can hear you say
'Don't leave, don't give up on me'
Two weeks and you ran away
I remember 'Don't lie to me'
You couldn't see it was not that way
Swear I never gave up on you.

I wanted nothing but for the trust again
And brick by brick you would take it
You feared the phantoms but none exist but you
You still saw fit to destroy it

And still you feel like the lonliness is better replaced by this
I don't believe it this way.
And I can see the fear in your eyes
I've seen it materialise
Growing stronger each day

I can see it as you turned to stone
Still clearly I can hear you say
'Don't leave, don't give up on me'
Two weeks and you ran away
I remember 'Don't lie to me'
You couldn't see it was not that way
Swear I never gave up on you."

any guesses where my screen name came from?

"I wish I was free of this

I see her in my dreams
I wish that she wasn't there
But she still haunts me
And I still feel her breath on me
I still want to taste her skin
But I know that would kill me

Damn her; still I choke on her lies
Still reeling from her last caress
her goodbye

Oh how this sickens me
This wretched fool's affair
I can't erase this from me
And now it permiates
In every thought I feel
The anger writhes in my soul

Damn her; still I feel my stomach turn
Choke back hold my head high; I am strong"